Hellllloooo 2013!

 

Hi all,

I hope everyone feels refreshed and ready to start the New Year.  Nows the time to forget all those past mistakes and habits and time to get new ones.

You can never take back what you’ve said or done but what you can do is change your life so you never repeat those mistakes again.  I’m bipolar and it took me most of my life before I was diagnosed.  (That was in 2006), thanks to my hubby John.

He never gave up on me once he met me.  He met me while I was a stripper and going thru a hard time in life with drugs and not caring. (After I returned from IRAN).  I’m not excusing my behavior but at the time I didn’t care what I did, I never tried to hurt anyone but I was destroying myself.  My friend Jenni knew this guy named “John”, and he would come into the bar and talk to her.  I know this sounds excusing but John had been married 26 years in a basically feelingless marriage.  It was at the point they didn’t talk to each other they didn’t sleep together, but they had a wonderful son and didn’t want to ruin his life….or view of.   I met John on September 24th, 2005, by June 2006, he had filed for divorce and I was living with him.  But that did not come easy by any means.

The first time I met him was “brief” to say the least but there was something about that first kiss that just made me sit there and say “WOW” to myself….of course I couldn’t let him know I was interested, by doing that would be breaking all the rules.  I had been hurt deeply, not once or twice but four times.  Now after Mohammad I thought I would never love again, ever.  So everytime John came over I would turn off the lights and make him “THINK” I wasn’t home.  But he knew better, he had become more familiar with my actions than I ever thought one could in such a short time.   He would stand outside and knock and knock and yell, “Lori I know your in there”……and after about 15 minutes I’d finally answer the door.  I had to get ready and make sure I looked perfect (well as perfect as I could get myself) before I’d answer the door.  That would involve hair, makeup and clothing.

You also have to know at the time, I wore a hair extension (clip in) and lots of make-up and was stripping, so I didn’t look half bad.

If you go to the bottom of my website you can see what I mean about looking much better back then.   www.loris-song.com

John finally talked me into getting rid of the hairpiece and going au natural.  He said he would love me no matter what I looked like because I had a good heart, and was a good person, but I apparently just didn’t know this about me at the time.

Anyway he stuck it out with me, got me through rehab, got me treated for bipolar and went through all the flashbacks and seizures I had due to my brain trauma suffered in the camp.    He also went through a couple suicide attempts I made, of which one included drinking bleach.  He sold his business to stay home and take care of me, because he knew I was going through that time which a nervous breakdown was occuring, because I was just realizing and internalizing what happened to me in the camp.   For the longest time I tried to shrug it off, buck up and be strong.  I didn’t want anyone pitying me.  But I guess finally meeting someone who showed such caring and affection to me after all I put him through made me realize it was ok and safe to be sad over what happened to me.    I thank GOD for him everyday of my life.  And since I’ve met him I don’t want to end my life anymore either:)

He really is my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR!  And if I had to go through all this again just to meet him, I WOULD!  I love you John.

With that I will say I only wish the best for all of you in 2013.  I am going to try to be happier, and less bitchy.  What some people don’t understand about BIPOLAR is that it’s a MOOD DISORDER not a mental illness.  We can not control our ups and downs and the medication just decreases the severity of it and the occurences.  I have learned that there will never be a day that I wake up HAPPY, I have to work at it.  Alot of you don’t understand this, but I think BIPOLAR people are born mad, sad and skeptical.  Any other emotion we must work for, especially if it is a GOOD ONE:)

I will try to make 2013 better than last year, and if I don’t interact on the blogs with you as much as I should, it’s because BIPOLAR people are by nature NOT SOCIABLE.  When someone comes to our door, we do a low roll over to the edge of the window and hope were hidden and when that person leaves we wipe our head (whew) and congratulate ourselves for getting thru that close call.

Most people go for walks and look at people to interact with, we look at the ground.  It’s not that we don’t want to interact, I think more that it’s we DON”T KNOW HOW, we are socially born AWKWARD at socializing.   But anyway…if you want to know more about BIPOLAR and it’s jokes on how we live (that may give you a better idea on us) this link might help with it’s cute cartoons.

https://www.facebook.com/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind

And here is a post I recently did that might help you understand:)

https://www.facebook.com/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind#!/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind/posts/464970476900217?notif_t=like

In a synopsis, I wish you well, I wish you love, I wish you greatness, but in the absence of any of this, just know I will always be your friend….Lori F. 1-2013

Link to my Discovery Channel Interview

I have updated information that was kind of disappointing to me.  I will be on Discovery Fit & Health on 12-27 @ 10PM  I’m on with two other people (this I didn’t know about) I’m the last line of the description where it says “a knight in shining armor turns out to be a girls nightmare”

Here is the link.

http://health.discovery.com/tv-schedules/daily.html?date=20121227.362

I have to start somewhere I guess to get this vital information out there regarding international domestic violence, and visiting foreign countries .

I hope you all watch it and share the link.   Thanks, Lori

Discovery Channel documentary AIR DATE!!!

Hi ALL,

I was informed by the producer of the Discovery Channel that my documentary would air on 12-272012 at 10pm on Discovery Fit and Health.  I will be looking forward to your comments, and I hope the truth will prevail, it could only help me and my future advertisement endeavors more!  Thank you all for supporting me through this time!

Lori

www.lori-song.com

Teaser Tuesday

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by

MizB of Should Be Reading.  Anyone can play along! Just do the following:

• Grab your current read • Open to a random page • Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page.

BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS!(make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)

• Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Product DetailsMy Teasers:

At the time I couldn’t understand the concept behind the public rapes, if that’s what you’d call them, but after returning to America, I learned a lot more about psychological warfare and how condemning the uses are.

Especially when you’re forced to watch, like it’s a movie premier, while the soldiers do horrible things to someone all the while laughing.

~ p.140, “Lori’s Song” by Lori Foroozandeh

This is my book but I’m FINALLY reading it in it’s entirety.  I never did read it from cover to back, I wrote it and let John proof read it because it was too hard for me, but now I’m finally doing it.  If anyone wants to review my book please let me know, I’d love to hear your comments.

My Synopsis on this PTSD

Trenton you are hearing advice from a very knowledgable lady that is CYNTHIA PUDRITH, we know each other well.  We were both in the same PTSD group and I’ve come to love her like a sister, well in my case MORE THAN MY SISTER..(Long story).

Forget and ignore that other entity that thinks she knows everything.  She is only in here to stir up shit and make people feel bad.  It’s obvious she doesn’t know her ass from a hole in the ground.  And the only reason I approved her post is because I believe in freedom of speech.  We can learn from everyone even the dull and ignorant, even if it’s learning how to NOT BE LIKE THEM.

I get where your coming from.  My PTSD wasn’t caused by what yours was, but I was in an Iranian torture camp, and Cynthia has went through a HELLISH, HORRIFIC experience but I will let her share if she feels comfortable.

There will always be people like this KNOW NOTHING, and I’m not saying that to just condemn her, I TRULY BELIEVE THIS TO BE TRUE.

If you ever want to be excluded from any further posts of hers, let me know, but it sounds like you are more than holding your own, and you have the UTMOST RESPECT from me.

I’m so happy to have met you, and to know there are other human beings out there that genuinely care for others.  God Bless, Lori

 

“Lori’s Song” on E-Book

I just would like everyone to know that my book “Lori’s Song” is available on E-Book as well as Kindle, Paperback, and Hardcover.  This is my authors page with the available links

http://www.outskirtspress.com/lorissong/

I also have a YOUTUBE video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j85rYnZ4YYU

This is my link to my Bronze Readers Favorite Award:

http://readersfavorite.com/review/2542

If there are ANY questions you have regarding the book, obtaining it or other please contact me and put LORIS SONG in the subject line.  lori@loris-song.com

Thanks all, I appreciate your support more than I can express in words.

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Discovery Channel Interview

I DID IT.  I had my Discovery Channel interview yesterday.  It was TWELVE HOURS LONG.  A very emotional day, and I slept until 3pm today.  But it was the best sleep I ever got, no nightmares so I’m happy.  Had a wonderful crew!  A cameraman, interviewer, and I guess some guy who would hold up the IPAD and say “LORI INTERVIEW TAKE ONE….)

Didn’t think they still did that.  They asked a LOT of questions and some things I remembered that I wish I hadn’t.  But I’m glad I did it.  It will spread awareness for International Domestic Violencce as well as conditions in the Middle East.  I’m just very happy it’s over.  Thanks for all your support and emails, they helped me more than you know!!!

Lori

Suboxone…my WONDER DRUG for addiction!

Suboxone is a relatively new drug for addiction.  I was first prescribed it in rehab in October 2008.  I couldn’t believe it!!!   I had NO WITHDRAWALS and it gave me this overall “calmness”.  It might not do this for everyone but I guarantee you if you use it you will know the difference between this and the traditional Methadone.  Suboxone is a NARCOTIC, but it works two ways, it has an opoid in it, then it has another ingredient that counteracts the “HIGH” feeling you get from opiates.  It also will cause withdrawals if you try to take another opiate with it.

YOU HAVE TO TRY IT TO BELIEVE IT, and it might not work the same on everyone.  The opiod it contains is strong so it will help with any pain you are having.  Matter of fact they are using it on cancer patients and is working better than MORPHINE for pain.

I have found some helpful information for you and the links are below.

I think if you try it you will be amazed.  It’s an orange pill that you let dissolve under your tongue and you do this one to twice daily.  I will let the experts tell you the rest:)

SUBOXONE and SUBUTEX are prescription medicines used to treat adults addicted to opioid (narcotic painkillers) medicines and drugs, such as morphine and heroin. SUBOXONE and SUBUTEX take the place of these medicines and drugs and may help you stop using and abusing them. SUBOXONE and SUBUTEX are part of a complete addiction treatment program that also includes counseling or behavioral therapy. SUBOXONE and SUBUTEX have not been studied in children.

SUBOXONE

is a tablet that contains 2 medicines.

  1. The first medicine is called buprenorphine (BYOO-pruh-NOR-feen). It is like painkiller medicines such as morphine, street drugs like heroin, and addiction treatment medicines like methadone. Buprenorphine may give you less of a “high” than these other prescription medicines and street drugs. Withdrawal or stopping buprenorphine may be easier than stopping other prescription medicines and street drugs.
  2. SUBOXONE also contains naloxone (nal-OX-own). When naloxone is injected, it blocks the effects of medicines and drugs like methadone, heroin, and morphine. Naloxone is added to SUBOXONE to stop people from injecting (“shooting-up”) SUBOXONE tablets. When you use SUBOXONE under your tongue (sublingually), as prescribed, the naloxone in SUBOXONE should not stop the medicine’s effects. However, if you inject SUBOXONE, the naloxone can give you bad withdrawal symptoms.
  3. SUBUTEX is a tablet and it contains only the medicine buprenorphine SUBUTEX is different from SUBOXONE because it does not contain naloxone.

Here is the link if you want more info:

www.suboxone.com

I suggest you ask your doctor about it.  Not just any doctor can prescribe it either, they have to have a special license just to prescribe it.  So do your research. Good Luck.

 

 

 

 

Desiderata (words to live by)

If we ALL could live by these words the world would be a MUCH BETTER PLACE!!!

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

© Max Ehrmann 1927

Let’s BLOG together!

This site is to share thoughts and views with other authors on subjects such as: PTSD, Depression, Bipolar, Substance abuse, domestic violence, sexual abuse and other meaningful topics that we all can learn, contribute to or just utilize as a tool to get to know one another:)

I’ve written my true story on my captivity in Iran during 911.  My book details my childhood of abuse, my four years in Iran living with a terrorist, and my journey home. But the journey had just begun upon arriving on American soil.  But it was one worth taking and fighting for.  I hope we all become good blogging “buddies” and learn, talk but are respectful of one another.  I appreciate you coming to visit.