I’m finally doing it, the Discovery Channel is coming to my house to make a DOCUMENTARY about what happened to me in Iran. I’m so scared and am urging everyone to pray for me. The people I’ve known since blogging have been the most supportive in the world. I can’t thank you enough for all your nice, encouraging comments as well as reviewing my book. I will keep you up to date on when it airs and how it is going day by day. Again thank you everyone! Lori
Bi-Polar
Personal stories, treatment, and resources for individuals either living with or dealing with this disorder on their own.
A fellow Bi-polars blog
This is another fellow bloggers on Bi-polar. Her true stories of how she came about being diagnosed, her stories prior to knowing she was manic and her hearfelt stories now.
I strongly recommend that you view it and give her support. Thank you.
http://moodswingsnjmadness.wordpress.com/my-life-story-get-some-popcorn/
Remembering 911
My students- Layla is on the Right End.
My heart goes out to those who lost loved ones, knew those who perished, or was involved with 911. But I guess we were ALL involved with 911, it not only affected those directly involved but it involved us as a nation. It involved our trust issues and brought back prejudice on such a high scale that some of us aren’t even sure to this day if we should trust ANYONE from the Middle East.
My view is that you can go on trusting just do so with discretion. And it’s too bad that it has to be like that. My story is a little different.
I was in Iran on 9/11. On 9/12 I was taken as a prisoner and held captive in a POW type camp in the hills of Iran. As far as I can guess we were held as leverage in case the USA decided to retaliate against the Middle East. People who knew or were related to Americans were put into these camp. I was raped, beaten and tortured for six weeks. When I arrived home in November 2001 I weighed 70 pounds, had traumatic brain injury and most of my teeth had been knocked out.
What I’m about to say is crazy, but I don’t hate Muslims or Middle Easterners. God knows I’ve tried and people can’t understand why, I don’t understand why. I guess there were a couple years in Iran when I first moved there that were GREAT YEARS. Not with my Iranian husband but with girls that I taught English to. They weren’t just students they were my friends too. Aged 10-19, these girls trusted me, so they would ask me questions about the USA, boys and religion. Each day after class we’d sit down and just talk and they knew what they told me or asked I wouldn’t tell their parents. We became so close and they were the ones who helped get me through Iran while I was kept there since my husband wouldn’t give his written permission to let me leave the country. So I really enjoyed these girls and respect what they have to endure on a daily basis. So I guess in my mind how can I hate a country or faith that these girls and others like them are a part of. There are FANATICS in all religions, and those are the ones we have to fear. Layla one of my students was killed in her fathers swimming pool for not being a virgin on her wedding night. I quit teaching soon after that.
I only wish the best for the survivors of this tragedy, but in reality we are all survivors and we are here today due to our choices in life.
Thank you for listening. God Bless all!
Desiderata (words to live by)
If we ALL could live by these words the world would be a MUCH BETTER PLACE!!!
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.
© Max Ehrmann 1927
Living with Bi-Polar
HI MY NAME IS LORI….AND I’D LIKE TO START MEETING PEOPLE WHO WANT TO LEARN, LISTEN, HELP, AND SMILE THROUGH A PROCESS OF LEARNING AND EDUCATING OURSELVES REGARDING THE MOOD DISORDER “bipolar”. “This is all new to me and I wanted to make this a giving and taking process, since there are many questions regarding this disorder and so much is still out there waiting to be discovered. I will try to post new and updated information re: this disorder and will give out my email link so if anyone has ideas or thoughts to contribute please let me know. We can slowly get to know one another and through sharing, crying and laughing maybe we can start to conquer the hows, whys, where’s and whens….. The HOW…HOW THE HELL DID WE GET IT? The WHY….WHY ME, WHY NOW, WHY DO I CARE?? The WHERE’S……WHERE DO WE START, WHERE DO WE GO, WHERE THE HELL AM I NOW?? The WHEN’S…….WHEN DID IT HAPPEN, WHEN WILL I KNOW MORE, WHEN WILL THIS ALL END?????? <<<<<>>>>>>
(I met a NUN once who was Bi-Polar and Tried to Marry her Priest…it wasn’t sacrilegious just proves that we ALL are vulnerable!)
Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder that causes episodes of depression (sadness and hopelessness) and episodes of mania (severely elevated mood). These episodes commonly affect your energy level, behavior, ability to function, and your ability to think clearly or make sound decisions
While there is no known cure for bipolar disorder, some medications have been approved to treat the different phases of bipolar disorder. SEROQUEL is approved to treat the depressive episodes and the acute manic episodes in bipolar disorder. A Range of Moods It may be helpful to think of the various mood states in bipolar disorder as a range: At one end of the range, there is severe mania. Mania is characterized by periods of elated mood, which can include racing thoughts, extreme irritability, or reckless behavior. It can cause you to do to STRANGE THINGS and SOME PEOPLE LIKE ME I MISSED THOSE TIMES!!
WE CAN STAND ON OUR OWN
In the middle, there is the normal or balanced mood state. This is a time during which you are relatively free of the signs and symptoms associated with bipolar disorder. At the other end of the range, there is depression, which can be mild to moderate or severe. Depression involves overwhelming feelings of sadness, worthlessness, and hopelessness. Now on the BIG QUESTION!! How do I know….I HAVE IT? NOW I’D LIKE TO INTERJECT SOME OF MY OWN PERSONAL NOTES: I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar in 2005, only 4 yrs. after returning from Iran. Once I was informed of the symptoms and the behaviors I was dumbfounded…… These behaviors and my whole life it seemed had been controlled by an UNCONTROLLED DISORDER…known as BIPOLAR!!!! So much has changed since being diagnosed that I couldn’t possibly fill you in about all the changes. But since I DO HAVE IT….and I have become acquainted with some VERY REAL friends that also have it…I decided to start this page and section and focus on the disorder. NOT ONLY WILL WE LEARN ABOUT THE DISORDER TOGETHER, WE WILL HELP EACH OTHER, LEAN ON EACH OTHER AND MOST OF ALL KEEP TELLING EACH OTHER THAT WE ARE IMPORTANT AND WORTHY OF LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. LETS GET STARTED DOING SOMETHING THAT ALOT OF US WONDERED IF WE’D EVER DO…… LIVING!!!!! ****I would like to add that I am under the care of two highly educated, experienced, and most of all COMPASSIONATE AND UNDERSTANDING doctors that treat me for my bipolar and the PTSD disorder I suffer from. These doctors are fine representatives of HENRY FORD HEALTH SYSTEMS in Detroit, Michigan. I also suffer from drug addiction and take the drug known as “SUBOXONE” there are two wonderful sites dedicated to Suboxone and Addiction click the links below and be sure to donate when you can! PATIENT’S STORIES-SUBOXONE ASSISTED TREATMENT I know several people through groups and developing friendships throughout the years that have these two disorder as well as PTSD. I am VERY PROUD TO be able to share these links with you! SITES LIKE THESE ARE NOT ONLY SUPPORTIVE BUT SO NEEDED TO GET THE WORD OUT ABOUT SUBOXONE AND DRUG ADDICTION The other link which is a FANTASTIC SITE is METHADONE-ADDICTION-RECOVERY
HOMESICK BUT NOT SURE WHY OR WHAT FOR????
That was my classic symptom of when the MANIA crashed with the DEPRESSION!! What is bipolar disorder? Bipolar disorder is an illness that causes extreme mood changes from manic episodes of very high energy to the extreme lows of depression. It is also called manic-depressive disorder. This illness can cause behavior so extreme that you cannot function at work, in family or social situations, or in relationships with others. Some people with bipolar disorder become suicidal. Having this disorder can make you feel helpless and hopeless. But you are not alone. Talking with others who suffer from it may help you learn that there is hope for a better life. And treatment can help you get back in control. Family members often feel helpless when a loved one is depressed or manic. If your loved one has bipolar disorder, you may want to get counseling for yourself. Therapy can also help a child who has a bipolar parent. What causes bipolar disorder? The cause of bipolar disorder is not completely understood. We know that it runs in families. It may also be affected by your living environment or family situation. One possible cause is an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. What are the symptoms? The symptoms depend on your mood swings. In a manic episode, you may feel very happy, energetic, or on edge. You may feel like you need very little sleep. You may feel overly self- confident. Some people spend a lot of money or get involved in dangerous activities when they are manic. After a manic episode, you may return to normal, or your mood may swing in the opposite direction to feelings of sadness, depression, and hopelessness. When you are depressed, you may have trouble thinking and making decisions. You may have memory problems. You may lose interest in things you have enjoyed in the past. You may also have thoughts about killing yourself. The mood swings of bipolar disorder can be mild or extreme. They may come on slowly over several days or weeks or suddenly over a few minutes or hours. The mood swings may last for a few hours or for several months. How is bipolar disorder diagnosed? Bipolar disorder is hard to diagnose. There are no lab tests for it. Instead, your doctor or therapist will ask detailed questions about what kind of symptoms you have and how long they last. To be diagnosed with bipolar I disorder, you must have had a manic episode lasting at least a week (less if you had to be hospitalized). During this time, you must have had three or more symptoms of mania, such as needing less sleep, being more talkative, behaving wildly or irresponsibly in activities that could have serious outcomes, or feeling as if your thoughts are racing. In bipolar II disorder, the manic episode may be less severe and shorter. Your urine and blood may be tested to rule out other problems that could be causing your symptoms. How is it treated? The sooner bipolar disorder is identified and treated, the better your chances of getting it under control. One of the most important parts of dealing with a manic episode is recognizing the early warning signs so that you can start treatment early with medicine that is especially for manic phases.
A variety of medicines is used to treat bipolar disorder. You may need to try several before you find the right combination that works for you. Most people with bipolar disorder need to take a medicine called a mood stabilizer every day. Medicines called antipsychotics can help get a manic phase under control. Antidepressants are used carefully for episodes of depression, because they cause some people to move into a manic phase. People often have to try several different medicines before finding what works for them. Regular checkups are important so that your doctor can tell if your treatment is working. Counseling for you and your family is also an important treatment. It can help you cope with some of the work and relationship issues that your illness may cause. Charting your mood is one way you can start to see your patterns and symptoms.
Keep a notebook of your feelings and what brought them on. If you learn what triggers your mood swings, you may be able to avoid them sometimes. People often stop taking their medicines during a manic phase because they feel good. But this is a mistake. You must take your medicines regularly, even if you are feeling better. Who is affected by bipolar disorder? Over 3 million Americans—about 1% of the population, or 1 in every 100 people—have bipolar disorder, with similar rates in other countries.1 Bipolar disorder occurs equally among males and females. It often begins between the ages of 15 and 24. THANK YOU FOR STOPPING BY COME AGAIN
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