Lori’s Song by Lori Foroozandeh. My interview with Jackie Anton. A wonderful blogger who chose to interview authors and bloggers. Please visit her site often to see the latest reviews.
If there is one thing that I want to stress to people with BIPOLAR is:
Please remember to TAKE YOUR MEDS!! I didn’t really realize how MUCH they made a difference until I was videotaped one time, and my GOD I looked and acted like a completely different person.
I was way too hyper and sensitive, and a little paranoid. I always think that I’m not good enough for anyone (especially after 911). After what was done to me, I couldn’t look people in the eye. It was so hard to believe that anyone would find anything interesting enough in me to want to be my friend. …UNLESS..they WANTED SOMETHING. It seems like being bipolar either leaves you in a total state of despair and insecurity and skeptical if anyone wants to do something for you…or WITH YOU (*friends e.g going out together) or it gives you so much self esteem and confidence that it borders on the narcissitic mode.
Sadly neither last for any length of time. I think that is why I wouldn’t take my meds, I liked those times of being so confident and arrogant and felt tlike I could conquer the world, and I would conquer a lot of things, but usually turned out bad in the end, but at the time it was happening I felt like this superior being….like no one knows what I’m thinking and that I could covince someone to do anything. And usually when someone has that much confidence it produces an energy so strong that others feel it and you do end up getting away with a lot…take for example the movie “CATCH ME IF YOU CAN”. But as usual just like in the movie the Bipolar didn’t get the girl and live happily ever after, they usually get involved with the criminal justice system and is put in prison or other.
Most Bipolars are HIGHLY INTELLIGENT, they theorize that this is based upon how the neurons fire into certain synapses of the brain, and the ones they touch are the ones responsible for intelligence and creative thinking. But who knows someone else will come out with a DIFFERNT THEORY later they always do!
If they could only bottle the effects/affects that mania gives us, and then only the GOOD CREATIVITY, then we would have some pretty brilliant people out there.
But overall trust me, stay on your meds to stay STABLE & CONSISTENT…well as consistent as you CAN BE. Be blessed with who is around you and willing to go through this with you. Remember people we are geniuses so we have to stay calm to put up with the other people of this world:):):):)
I would also like to share a website that also deals with bipolar, it is humoruos, touching, and well done. https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Life-With-A-Side-Of-Bipolar/333331666761680
Please if your bipolar SHARE YOUR STORY WITH US, we need COMRADES. or if you have PTSD, have experienced DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SUBSTANCE ABUSE, or ever been on the drug SUBOXONE for substance abuse. We have categories for all these AILMENTS:) Or if you’d just like to vent about anything we welcome that too:)
Hi all,
I hope everyone feels refreshed and ready to start the New Year. Nows the time to forget all those past mistakes and habits and time to get new ones.
You can never take back what you’ve said or done but what you can do is change your life so you never repeat those mistakes again. I’m bipolar and it took me most of my life before I was diagnosed. (That was in 2006), thanks to my hubby John.
He never gave up on me once he met me. He met me while I was a stripper and going thru a hard time in life with drugs and not caring. (After I returned from IRAN). I’m not excusing my behavior but at the time I didn’t care what I did, I never tried to hurt anyone but I was destroying myself. My friend Jenni knew this guy named “John”, and he would come into the bar and talk to her. I know this sounds excusing but John had been married 26 years in a basically feelingless marriage. It was at the point they didn’t talk to each other they didn’t sleep together, but they had a wonderful son and didn’t want to ruin his life….or view of. I met John on September 24th, 2005, by June 2006, he had filed for divorce and I was living with him. But that did not come easy by any means.
The first time I met him was “brief” to say the least but there was something about that first kiss that just made me sit there and say “WOW” to myself….of course I couldn’t let him know I was interested, by doing that would be breaking all the rules. I had been hurt deeply, not once or twice but four times. Now after Mohammad I thought I would never love again, ever. So everytime John came over I would turn off the lights and make him “THINK” I wasn’t home. But he knew better, he had become more familiar with my actions than I ever thought one could in such a short time. He would stand outside and knock and knock and yell, “Lori I know your in there”……and after about 15 minutes I’d finally answer the door. I had to get ready and make sure I looked perfect (well as perfect as I could get myself) before I’d answer the door. That would involve hair, makeup and clothing.
You also have to know at the time, I wore a hair extension (clip in) and lots of make-up and was stripping, so I didn’t look half bad.
If you go to the bottom of my website you can see what I mean about looking much better back then. www.loris-song.com
John finally talked me into getting rid of the hairpiece and going au natural. He said he would love me no matter what I looked like because I had a good heart, and was a good person, but I apparently just didn’t know this about me at the time.
Anyway he stuck it out with me, got me through rehab, got me treated for bipolar and went through all the flashbacks and seizures I had due to my brain trauma suffered in the camp. He also went through a couple suicide attempts I made, of which one included drinking bleach. He sold his business to stay home and take care of me, because he knew I was going through that time which a nervous breakdown was occuring, because I was just realizing and internalizing what happened to me in the camp. For the longest time I tried to shrug it off, buck up and be strong. I didn’t want anyone pitying me. But I guess finally meeting someone who showed such caring and affection to me after all I put him through made me realize it was ok and safe to be sad over what happened to me. I thank GOD for him everyday of my life. And since I’ve met him I don’t want to end my life anymore either:)
He really is my KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR! And if I had to go through all this again just to meet him, I WOULD! I love you John.
With that I will say I only wish the best for all of you in 2013. I am going to try to be happier, and less bitchy. What some people don’t understand about BIPOLAR is that it’s a MOOD DISORDER not a mental illness. We can not control our ups and downs and the medication just decreases the severity of it and the occurences. I have learned that there will never be a day that I wake up HAPPY, I have to work at it. Alot of you don’t understand this, but I think BIPOLAR people are born mad, sad and skeptical. Any other emotion we must work for, especially if it is a GOOD ONE:)
I will try to make 2013 better than last year, and if I don’t interact on the blogs with you as much as I should, it’s because BIPOLAR people are by nature NOT SOCIABLE. When someone comes to our door, we do a low roll over to the edge of the window and hope were hidden and when that person leaves we wipe our head (whew) and congratulate ourselves for getting thru that close call.
Most people go for walks and look at people to interact with, we look at the ground. It’s not that we don’t want to interact, I think more that it’s we DON”T KNOW HOW, we are socially born AWKWARD at socializing. But anyway…if you want to know more about BIPOLAR and it’s jokes on how we live (that may give you a better idea on us) this link might help with it’s cute cartoons.
https://www.facebook.com/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind
And here is a post I recently did that might help you understand:)
https://www.facebook.com/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind#!/TryingToMakeSenseOfThisBipolarMind/posts/464970476900217?notif_t=like
In a synopsis, I wish you well, I wish you love, I wish you greatness, but in the absence of any of this, just know I will always be your friend….Lori F. 1-2013
SO TRUE!!!!
This has been the first truly active, successful blogging that I’ve ever done. I have met some pretty extrordinary people, matter of fact they all are extrordinary! Not only have the people I’ve met had their own downfalls and disasters in life, they have survived, and have made their life better despite it.
Sometimes in life we have to be slapped in the face before we realize just how lucky we are in life. Materialism is the way of society today as is technological toys that take our minds off of reality. But along with that passage of reality we fail to meet people that could influence or change our lives in a more “REAL” fashion.
While I begrudge the technology that is forcing us into “BOT reality, where communication is no longer face to face, and we never have to deal with rejection due to just tapping a button if we don’t want to continue reading what we think is “bad news”.
I believe insecurity is what feeds this type of communication. We no longer have to fear the thought that someone might not want to talk to us, or like us so we just delete them from a list and put them on another “LIST”. We become so absorbed with this cyber world that it is turning our lives into one anti-social desert of lonliness. Sure we can maintain our confidence that we are popular by keeping those like us and that LIKE US on a networking site, but we are failing at human interaction. Even bullying has become a cyber sport.
I really feel sorry for the kids that won’t be able to go to school football games and “INTERACT, or go on hayrides during Halloween, or sledding during winter. We DONT do that anymore, instead we are running into telephone polls and falling into manholes because were not watching where we are going, all the while texting our friend who is walking behind us. Growing up is no longer the same, and being a kid is no longer the same. Sad but true so we have to deal with it.
BUTTTTT the one thing I can say for sure that is positive out of all of this is meeting my fellow bloggers and AUTHORS. To be allowed to talk to people from different points in the country and be able to share with each other lifes ups and downs all the while trying to tell stories that we hope will inspire, teach and touch others emotions is a WONDERFUL thing.
I get confused with all these blogging awards and their stipulations about posting this sentence and sharing this link while answering this question to accept it. I’m not saying thats a bad thing because everyone involved should get recognition. But please don’t fault me if I don’t respond appropriately or thank the wrong person, or even moreso don’t thank the right person. Therefor I would just like to award one big
THANK YOU FELLOW BLOGGERS AND AUTHORS for a great year 2012!!!!
I hope everyone gets a chance to visit and interact with the women I’ve met since blogging. They are truly INSPIRATIONAL, KIND and PATIENT women. Sadly you won’t be able to meet one of them, for she passed away in a house fire with her husband in 2012. But she does deserve recognition Sandra McLeod Humphrey who was very prolific in writing childrens books. She will be sadly missed in the literary world and amongst her friends and colleagues. As for the rest of these fine women I will list their sites below and be sure to visit these site, I’m sure you will laugh, cry and recognize why these women are so special. But always remember……
Once more THANK YOU ALL FELLOW BLOGGERS who have allowed me into your circle and have accepted me as your FRIEND! Salut to 2013
Rosemary Adkins http://www.extraordinaryireland.com/ be sure to buy the book and aid in the continued research on diabetes.
Micki Peluso http://www.mallie1025.blogspot.com/
Sharla Shults http://catnipoflife.wordpress.com/ and http://www.awakenings2012.blogspot.com/
Christine Hannon http://ahairdressersdiaries.wordpress.com/
Delinda McCann http://delindalmccann.weebly.com/blog.html
Deirdre Tolhurst http://www.deirdretolhurst.blogspot.com/
Raani York http://raaniyork.wordpress.com/
Sylvia Massara http://www.sylviamassara.com/
Posthumously Sandra McLeod Humphrey http://kidscandoit.com
Sandy Nachlinger & Sandra Allen http://iousex.blogspot.com/
Lisa Fender http://www.lisafender.com/
Manic Jenn http://moodswingsnjmadness.wordpress.com/about/
Jessie Tyson http://jessiebtyson.blogspot.ca/
Linnieann http://linneann.wordpress.com/
and my own hometown writers group
Autumn http://www.thelostwordwriters.com/blog/
Thank you all, you couldn’t have been kinder and more accepting of a group. Lori
"Lori's Song" 